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SOUL'S REFLECTION - MAY 2017
A lot has been happening to trigger off things and bring out all the ghoulies from the subconscious. The feelings of disempowerment have soared for me in the last 12 months. All I could do was experience it as best I could, and then pick up the pieces afterwards.
Yesterday was a perfect example of the kind of day I no longer wish to invite into my life yet I still seem to invite it. The shaking hands, ungroundedness, getting on the wrong bus, having old friends entirely brush off my concerns and my having to realise when a dead horse is truly dead.
The fact is that boundaries need to be solidified and I will need to
start eating fish in order to get protein so my hair can start feeling
healthy and not fall out in shock.
The most frustrating pattern in the last 12 months has been that I stopped entirely and couldn't do anything. And when my energy clears and I can do things, then everything happens at the same time, I miss out and then I shut down all over again.
Patience and moderation will get me far.
There is no point in getting frustrated with others saying something that isn't for me. We still need to respect it and maybe not ask those questions or invite those behaviours in to our field.
I would always choose to liberate myself from all the crap of the past and all that isn't really me and lose the illusions that up until now I still hold onto out of fear and sadness of loss.
You see, the thing that frustrates me is that all of the others did it. They went through their darkness and now are doing a lot better than I could even imagine for myself.
And I still haven't when I am the same as them. We all come from the same Light, so what on earth is that limiting belief so powerful that it holds me back?
The amount of meandering and blind following I have done in the last so many years is astonishing.
There is much rage still needing release, so watch out pillows and ugly crockery!
I shall find a light-heartedness that eluded me for so long.
I shall find the way, in spite of all that I mistook for love that ended up being control. Clarity shall find me and embrace me and love me. So shall hope and alignment.
The most frustrating pattern in the last 12 months has been that I stopped entirely and couldn't do anything. And when my energy clears and I can do things, then everything happens at the same time, I miss out and then I shut down all over again.
Patience and moderation will get me far.
There is no point in getting frustrated with others saying something that isn't for me. We still need to respect it and maybe not ask those questions or invite those behaviours in to our field.
I would always choose to liberate myself from all the crap of the past and all that isn't really me and lose the illusions that up until now I still hold onto out of fear and sadness of loss.
You see, the thing that frustrates me is that all of the others did it. They went through their darkness and now are doing a lot better than I could even imagine for myself.
And I still haven't when I am the same as them. We all come from the same Light, so what on earth is that limiting belief so powerful that it holds me back?
The amount of meandering and blind following I have done in the last so many years is astonishing.
There is much rage still needing release, so watch out pillows and ugly crockery!
I shall find a light-heartedness that eluded me for so long.
I shall find the way, in spite of all that I mistook for love that ended up being control. Clarity shall find me and embrace me and love me. So shall hope and alignment.
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