i need to tell the world

there are a lot of things i need to tell the world...

i hope i am able to allow myself to do so...

they say we have free will and are not victims

i am sure that's the case

just remember your worth is not in your head

it's just the fact you're still alive

otherwise

you'd be dead

and that would still affect others

more than you

there are so many things

that i have done wrong

so terribly wrong

it has cast something upon me

so people do not see

the truth

they see whatever is in their

own eyes

and there is a message

to stop

these people

really

must

go

for

there is something stopping me

from having a connection with them

they are just randoms and tandems

that i attached to

rather than forming solid relationships

why do the wounded call out to the wounded

we are awful for one another

not right

there is a pretense that has cast a spell upon me for years

because

there is the loneliness

there is the emptiness

there is the silence

it keeps coming back

and i keep staring at the empty eye sockets

asking

why?

and

how to end this pain and fuckery?