lighting the candles, burning the Shadow

The shadow work is being done. It is not necessarily being done by me, but more through me.

There was something that Matt Kahn must have said in one of his recordings, and someone kind posted it on social media. It was about how I as a human am unable to forgive, unable to work through the shadow, unable to heal the emotions, unable to fix my life, unable to open up my third eye, restructure my DNA and RNA structures, unable to astral heal, etc... but You can do it through me. I surrender to this.

It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.

All this means is to pray for others to be free from suffering, rather than to curse their uncouth and unconscious behaviour.

I am finally able to read 40 Rules of Love without entity interference, or without some ****storm beating my energy to a pulp. I am halfway through, and I am fully in love with Shams of Tabriz. The energy of this soul is so overwhelmingly tender yet rational, fallible yet also beautiful. I see his essence gleaming through my cousin. It is an addictive and very attractive energy. I first came across this free, ferocious, yet quiet and gentle, conceding, malleable energy in my "friend" B in Konya all those years ago. He has been the only man to ever read to me, and light a real fire with coals, and to make me tea (it was that fake artificial apple tea, but who cares!). There is something very attractive about that energy in a man. Solidity, groundedness. We listened to Evanescence songs and his English was amazing and he was so articulate, as well. Middle Eastern men, sigh!

My deep attraction for that energy also highlights that is the energy I currently lack within myself. I will cultivate it within me, God willing. As He works through me inspite of myself.

In the book, as in Life, the beggar's face is that of God, the harlot's heart is as pure as a saint, the alcoholic is bleeding from within and seeks relief - God is within her as well. We none of us are to ever judge the appearance of another.

Rule 14
God is busy with the completion of your work, both outwardly and inwardly. He is fully occupied with you. Every human being is a work in progress that is slowly but inexorably moving toward perfection. We are each an unfinished work of art both waiting and striving to be completed. God deals with each of us separately because humanity is fine art of skilled penmanship where every single dot is equally important for the entire picture.

I have a daily Rumi quote that appears on my phone at 8:30am in the morning. Today was one that takes me a while to understand how.

So far, all I have concluded is that this corporeal world is full of crap and density. And for us idealists, who imagine it to be different. that is why we cause ourselves so much suffering. Once we accept Life for being the opposite of harmony, our resistance ceases, and we don't wish for something different. We accept the insanity and find inner coherence.

Or someone wiser than I am once said:

Life sucks and then you die.

:)