The thing about life is that you need support and you need to be connected to the love frequency. The Creator is the one who loves you the most, and you can never escape from that love and mercy, even when the darkness overtakes you.
And it constantly overtakes you. Because you are in a human body, in a human life and right now, things are so crazy, we all are so strong to still wake up in the morning - we didn't give up and remain in the astral at night.
The energy in Canada is different from the energy in London. After a long time, since I was in Turkey last year, I felt I could BREATHE - there was SPACE. I couldn't live in Toronto because there is no sea and it's all concrete and highways for miles everywhere you go - I did a good job surviving the four years I was there.
But the vibe is different - and the people are slightly more animated, if at the same time I could see the programming and the constraints.
For God knows what reasons, I missed out on dinner with my cousins, and ended up meeting people I really didn't want to meet - they triggered off something still inside of me known as low self worth and self esteem - my auric field was weak. And so things happened as they did.
But when God destines a respite from the madness, He destines it. Someone who surprised us ended up being my anchor. An oasis of calm and of light and of love.
It might not always be the case, but I have experienced what life looks like in another person's world. With family who love, who care, who are giving, generous and don't let the small stuff bog them down.
I will need to make my own family, rather than borrow other people's families...
I need to create my own life rather than live out vicariously through others...
"You're taking longer to get ready than the bride!"
"I'm out of practice, and I live my life vicariously through others. This is possibly the closest I'll get to getting married."
Who knows? That's not the end game - the end game is love, affection, companionship - not a blank, empty, dark sceptre by my bedside every night, egging me on to cry more helpless tears of loneliness.
Whatever has blocked us, may that all be removed.
When even the angels say enough is enough, that means divine intervention is now very welcome.
I have been unable to speak for a while, and some may see me as majnoon, but that's a precursor to wisdom.
“Don’t turn away. Keep your gaze on the bandaged place. That’s where the light enters you.” - Rumi
“You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.” - Rumi0
“Your hand opens and closes, opens and closes. If it were always a fist or always stretched open, you would be paralysed. Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding, the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated as birds' wings.”
― Rumi0
“There is a secret medicine given only to those who hurt so hard they can't hope.
The hopers would feel slighted if they knew.”
― Rumi0
Only the Creator has full knowledge of the affairs of us lot
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