She could feel the familiar pull of wanting to take him, as she
wanted to with all of the little boys she knew, in her arms and open
them up to feelings they were unaware they could feel with a nurturing,
protective, safe, gentle, delicate love.
Opening their hearts to feel, to release it all, to live, to then scream in ecstasy and to breathe free.... to be the true nature of themselves...
And that's when she knew she had to go.
The bodily and emotional responses cut through the sense and wisdom like a samurai's sword.
She knew better this time.
She sang out "God be with you" in what had become an automatic formula that had lost it's meaning and he replied the same.
Retroactively, as she travelled home on the bus, exhausted, she really sent him divine Love and wondered if he had eaten his dinner. She loved him. Purely. Just like the first one. Programming can be such a powerful thing if one is unaware. Thankfully, she was aware now.
This little serendipity was such a blessing. Such a sweet, unexpected blessing.
Such a beautiful boy. Like honeysuckle. She could see herself in him, of course. That is why her heart spontaneously opened up to let him in.
"May he receive the help he needs in perfection... may he be able to reach his fullest potential. May he know true Love."
Just contact with the divine masculine or with those she could pray for... was such a blessing now.
Her heart continued to sing and asked for more tall, dark, handsome men... some of whom she could have a spiritual partnership with.
Well, that was her ego talking.
She needed just the one true love this lifetime.
Promiscuity may have been in her energy, but the way she had been living her life, it would seem she had taken a vow of celibacy to counteract the chaos of previous lifetimes.
These tiny signs from God were so sweet, as though He had tucked away tiny presents for her to uncover along this treasure hunt of reality.
And sometimes, she got whacked by a big smack of humiliation.
ebb and flow....
grace and justice...
karma must be balanced...
She allowed for herself to be in the space of neutrality and non judgement.
Opening their hearts to feel, to release it all, to live, to then scream in ecstasy and to breathe free.... to be the true nature of themselves...
And that's when she knew she had to go.
The bodily and emotional responses cut through the sense and wisdom like a samurai's sword.
She knew better this time.
She sang out "God be with you" in what had become an automatic formula that had lost it's meaning and he replied the same.
Retroactively, as she travelled home on the bus, exhausted, she really sent him divine Love and wondered if he had eaten his dinner. She loved him. Purely. Just like the first one. Programming can be such a powerful thing if one is unaware. Thankfully, she was aware now.
This little serendipity was such a blessing. Such a sweet, unexpected blessing.
Such a beautiful boy. Like honeysuckle. She could see herself in him, of course. That is why her heart spontaneously opened up to let him in.
"May he receive the help he needs in perfection... may he be able to reach his fullest potential. May he know true Love."
Just contact with the divine masculine or with those she could pray for... was such a blessing now.
Her heart continued to sing and asked for more tall, dark, handsome men... some of whom she could have a spiritual partnership with.
Well, that was her ego talking.
She needed just the one true love this lifetime.
Promiscuity may have been in her energy, but the way she had been living her life, it would seem she had taken a vow of celibacy to counteract the chaos of previous lifetimes.
These tiny signs from God were so sweet, as though He had tucked away tiny presents for her to uncover along this treasure hunt of reality.
And sometimes, she got whacked by a big smack of humiliation.
ebb and flow....
grace and justice...
karma must be balanced...
She allowed for herself to be in the space of neutrality and non judgement.
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